Tuesday, July 22, 2008

College

Well this is my first blog and I'm not sure what the steps are for this thing so I am just going to wing it...
College...
College (Latin collegium) is a term most often used today to denote an educational institution. More broadly, it can be the name of any group of colleagues (see, for example electoral college, College of Arms, College of Cardinals). Originally, it meant a group of persons living together under a common set of rules

Wow thats a bit to small when compared to all the applications and short histories of just about every college on the east coast I have looked at. My parents make it seem like the decision isn't that big and I should go where I want, but to me it's like the biggest decision I have ever had to make in my entire life. The next four years of my life will be based on the decision I make in a second. It will even carry on into life after college or where I find my future wife. I pray about it but I can never find peace about where my head is at. I know God will come through and do something truly awesome and Ill understand why he did but I want to know now, I want the peace that comes with assurance and security. I dont want to second guess myself or feel like I'm going somewhere where I will be miserable. On top of that I want to be close to my friends I have now because I know the first year will be tough and I will need someone to help me out plus I dont want to lose them. My parents always talk about high school friends like they were in a past life or something and I want the friends I have now to be there forever. I want to be eighty years old sitting on my front porch with the same six people I have over all the time. I just wish there was some magic book I could open that would tell me what I was suppose to do and how to do it, but then I realize it would take all the fun and challenges out of life and instead of living we would be knowing and that's God's job and I am perfectly content with leaving him in charge of all the buisness of running the universe and all that jazz...